Bludgeon Defeat With Courage


I’m sure many of us have those memories of times when we were bullied by one person or another.  Most people remember being bullied while young students in school and most times the bullying was coming from another student.

There are times when the bullying has come from a trusted teacher, which was the case for me.

I was a teenager attending the eleventh grade in my local high-school where each week we would have a Health class.

One day during our Health class the teacher announced that she was going to choose certain students to give an impromptu talk in front of the class.

Now, I was, and forever had been very uncomfortable standing in front of the class, let alone speaking while standing in front of the class.  I believe the teacher noticed this trait in me and this is the reason that she chose me to be her first speaker!

All of a sudden I heard my name called!!  I rose from my seat and made my way to the front of the class!

The teacher then asked me to speak to the class about a subject that now I have forgotten.

I stammered and struggled, trying to speak with a shaky voice when all of a sudden the teacher stopped me.

She then turned to the other students and asked them to tell her ‘what traits I had demonstrated’ while attempting to speak!

You see, she was conducting an experiment to teach the class ‘what a nervous and frightened person portrayed’!

I was, to say the least, very embarrassed and humiliated in front of my class.  I’m sure several other students felt my pain and humiliation.

I have never forgotten this episode which occurred in my younger years and I cannot forgive this teacher for what she did.

I am sure she did not think it through that she was being a bully, that she might as well have bludgeoned me with a stick in front of my peers.

I left school following that incident but returned later in life to gain my diploma and to go on to college.  Courage did conquer the fear eventually.

To anyone reading this, please don’t let anyone saddle you with fear.  Some will do it without meaning to and then there are some who do want to instill fear and defeat in you.   You cannot lose heart!  Please don’t let the bully win!

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8 Comments Add yours

  1. Dear Patricia,
    I am sorry to hear your story. What you experienced was brutal.

    I was bullied by some older kids when I was in the middle school. My school was close to home. I usually walked back home most of the times alone, unless accompanied by any friend. The bullies stood in a place in the neighborhood. They mimicked my walking style and how I spoke. Sometimes I used longer routes to avoid the billies. I do not think I told this to anyone at that time. A child’s brain functions in a mysterious way. A few years passed by. I went to high school. The bullies were not able to leave middle school yet. I felt that the bullies were not coming to my path anymore. Many years after that, I shared this story with my wife.

    I remember, when I was a middle and high school student, my friends and I felt that some teachers were always angry. They bullied a lot. Some teachers were very kind and sympathetic. They always brought a bundle of joy and encouragement. I hope that the next generation will study in a bully-free environment where everyone will bring joy for everyone.

    Thank you for writing this amazing post for awareness. Have a wonderful day.

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    1. Patricia says:

      Hi!! Thank you so very much for sharing your terrible experience with bullies. You are right that a child’s brain functions in mysterious ways. I never did tell my parents my story about the teacher. I guess we went through these times for a reason. We have come through it and now can talk about it and help the future generation. We can be sympathetic to our own children and grandchildren. Your note has meant a lot to me, thank you!!! 🙂

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  2. thinkinkadia says:

    Thanks for writing/talking about it. That’s already half the battle won!
    Now step two: let’s pick up the bludgeon and hit it bang in the face of that fear. Best wishes

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Patricia says:

      Hi to you!!!! Yes, you’ve got it!! I agree! Thank you so much for this great comment!! 🙂

      Liked by 1 person

      1. thinkinkadia says:

        Dedicate to you and settleinelpaso (after reading about your experiences)

        Liked by 1 person

        1. Patricia says:

          Thank you; this is wonderful! This means so much!! 🙂

          Liked by 1 person

  3. What a mean ridiculous teacher to use a student to teach the class a lesson and to do it at your expense. How awful and I am very sorry that happened to you. Your writing of your painful memory was well written.

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Patricia says:

      Thank you! Yes it was horrible then but yoy know, it has helped me so much to write about it. I believe now I can put it in the past. 🙂


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